Saturday, August 30, 2008
convocation. convocation. bloody long event. makes me so damn sleepy.pics pics will be up soon!went to st james at night. knew many new ppl like tiffany, nurul, emily, sonia, valerie, timothy, winston....i forgot the rest. it was fun. lotsa madness. everyone was high, drunk, rowdy and wasted. ESPECIALLY SAM. haha.nurul was going " u jin! u jin! are u from lasalle? come! drink! " hahaha...hmmmm...and when she get's all high, she'll go " CCB lah! " hahaha.valerie? haha.. triple xxx dirty dancing. she kept laughing away telling me that sam is so bloody 'buay zhai' lol. winston's happily smoking away inside the club, not forgetting falling flat on the floor while trying to catch hold of a random girl jumping onto him. haha.the kinda nonsense u'll never ever imagine from a group of professional bankers. hahaha.anyway, sharlene, kelvin and anthony happen to be there too. oh ya! and my bro! raziz! he's the saxaphone player of the band. how time flies.....knew sharlene and raziz since i was 13yrs old.
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Friday, August 29, 2008
chill-out at halo bar with sam, klyse and terence.starting work on the 3rd of sep. iam happy. =)7 more hours to convocation. iam still wide awake. =(
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Thursday, August 28, 2008
arrived at last....waited for a month.tomorrow is my convocation.
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008
met up with estella while waiting for jl to finish work. suprised that dewey is still in VentureEra for like 7 yrs and counting. remembered the days when he tried to romped me and albert in. the raw, fresh-faced dewey who only had bananas, a airdryer, hair gel and GNC pills in his ultra huge nike duffer. the guy whom u can only see him in the school canteen, swimming pool and gym but just not in lectures.well...now, he's a successful business manager driving a swanky bmw z4. iam happy and proud of u bro.
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
my phone alarm buzzed at 1pm on a sunday afternoon. i dun remember setting alarms on weekends. took a look and recalled why i did set the alarm. it was done months ago because today marks the 1000th day since we got together. but it will never meant to be.
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
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Monday, August 18, 2008
friday.
had an sms from madeline at 3.30am.
" im alone at phuture. "
" huh? i thought u mentioned that u'll be going with ur friends? "
" yea.... they danced with some random guys and went off with them. "
woahhh. the SIA stewardess aint doing anything to help better their ALREADY fucked-up reputation huh. met up with her at 4.30am to hear her rant about her bitchy chief stewardess who will never open a pack of orange juice for fear of chipping her damn nails and her soon-to-breakup bf. she kept going " how? how? how? how? how? how? u know me for quite long le..iam such a boring person meh?" and i just replied " breakup. breakup. breakup. breakup. breakup. breakup. "
i mean do u seriously wanna hear me being honest about this whole situation or u just need someone to humour you and you dwelling in self-delusion? well, since he has been msging u how much he loves u. how much he misses u. how much he cant wait for u to be back in singapore... yada..yada...blah..blah.....but on the other hand, he doesnt feel like meeting u when u are back in singapore citing lame excuses like iam tired...i want a boys night out because i have not met them for quite some time, where apparently, u guys met up few days back...sms-es takes years to be replied to... enough said. there is something seriously wrong with this relationship. the reason that u are still holding on, is that u just dun wanna be the "bad guy" that initiates a break-up. or simply, walloping in self-delusion again..thinking no..no..no...there's nothing wrong in this relationship. maybe he's really tired...blah..blah..blah.... as we all know, love is blind and it really makes people think UN-straight.
madeline goes " arghhhhh! how? how? how? how to have mood to serve people later! " apparently, this girl have a flight to brisbane later in the evening.
" you take over me can?? i lend u my kebaya. "
haha...yeah...right....
anyway, been telling her that when it comes to a point in a relationship when you feel that the other party doesnt really have the enthusiam to meet, prefer hanging out with his friends, constantly taking godzillion years to reply an sms. BREAK-UP IS INEVITABLE.
got an sms from her at 8.30am " i broke off with him le "
iam pleasantly pleased for her. least the misery ends sooner rather than later.
Sunday.
lunch at marina mandarin peach blossoms with le familia.
they served wickedly tasty dimsums.
sis and bro-in-law
my dad is forever camera shy
un-glam shot
mummy and her grand-daughter aka my niece
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Saturday, August 16, 2008
from a friend." ok...hypothetically speaking...you have a girlfriend. and lets say your gf gets mad at you cos you still hang out with other girls, just you and that girl, the two of you going out. you are just friends with her. you dont kiss and hug. but is it right? is it right for you to go out with other girls like that when you're attached, even if you dont do couple stuff? for me, i just dont like it. >( "well, on a guy's perspective, getting all freaked out and jealousy over ur gf hanging out with her male friend is pretty much a norm for all guys. lets all admit it guys. you may blabber non-stop saying nahhhh, she's a good buddy of mine or we have been friends for years. but hell no. the roving eyes does suffice when she happens to have an up-skirt, down-blouse or whatever shit that allow ur eyes "into" her clothes or getting ur hands on her. but we all know how guys can make the roving hands look all so innocent and pure. *only apply if ur girl buddy is hot* he may even be wanking off to ur pics every damn night and acting all so coyly the next day infront of you. yes. guys can be real chameleons.back to topic...at the start of a r/s, the girl would probably go "awww..he's so cute! he'll gets so jealously over some guys! he loves me so much! " but as the days, months or even years goes by, this is sadly not the case anymore. she'll most probably label you as a damn bloody jealously imbecile or an overly sensitive freak. i have to admit that it is a fine thin line between being jealous or being overly jealous which i have not fathom yet. but can't you sit back and think simple? why did he get so jealous?? because he doesnt love you? obviously no.and of course, these definitely are restrictions which make sense and aren't silly like 'i don't want you to go out on Thursdays, just because i say so' or ' You can't eat green M&M's anymore, it really bothers me'. you are allowed to have friends of the opposite sex, well why not. maybe you even knew them before you knew me. fine. but is there ever a time where you can just hang out with that person by yourself when you're attached, and just say 'it's no big deal'? if you say nothing happened and nothing will ever happen, that's just a load of BS. relationships, and i mean real relationships, not those secondary/poly/jc puppy loves where a guy asks a girl to 'go steady' or vice versa and it lasts all of 3 weeks (or less). when it gets serious and you've been with that person for a wickedly long time until you know all their flaws, major/minor, their personality traits, bad habits, all the little things that make up the person whom you're deeply in love with, maybe sometimes the thought of actually being with that person forever slips in occasionally. and you wonder if that person wants the same thing you do. i don't mean silly, childish ramblings of so-called infinite love, like 'awww i love you so much and i wanna be with you forever!' i mean real commitment. i'm not afraid to say the word: marriage. the kind of commitment and seriousness that requires you to actually sit down and discuss it, at least for a certain period of time. not to say that a proposal has to be made there and then or a diamond ring to pop out of nowhere, just a simple talk where you ask your partner, have you ever thought of the future, of this relationship? love actually does hurt, both physically and emotionally. physically as in the bitter tears you shed for someone whom you thought she'll love u through the end of time, the countless promises, swears and assurances. but when you really think about it, you start to question whether it really was 'true love' and whether promises does prove anything but just a pact of lovey dovey sweet nothings that is a normality that a couple has to say to each other on a regular basis? it makes me wonder that what if another girl in future said " u jin.. i will love you forever and ever. i swear " hmmmmmmmmmmm..... iam afraid i would go " fuck you. quit the BS. who's gonna promise forever? " haha.emotional pain. well there's too much stuff that goes into that and quite frankly iam too lazy to mesh out the details of that. i do not know when or would i ever be able to find a girl that i would be so utterly comfortable with like iam with her...used to be. that i could feel so at ease bathing in front of her, peeing in front of her, messed-up hair with my hairband on, my unruly unshaved look, my specs on, the call from her at 3am to ask me over to accompany her...i'll literally fly over, the morning till evening ikea shoppings, the overnight paintings....etc..etc..etc......have she cleared her entire top shelf? have she deleted all the overseas pics?it ended so abruptly. too abruptly for me to handle.
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Thursday, August 14, 2008
madeline was telling me all these weird abbreviations of the flight routes. ok. i forgot most of it. madeline's flying, xiangning's flying, sharon's flying, claudia's flying, rachel's flying...blah blah blah...it gets all so rivetting when all of them are online at the same time.madeline: " yo! im in jakarta now! "xiangning: " haha! beijing damn happening lah. "sharon: " damn sian can. this is my 6th time to korea...think i'll slack in the room "claudia: " haha! new york! new york! here i come! "rachel: " jin ah...what do u want from greece? "greece? haha.... ermmm....nvm.alright. back to my convo with madeline. heard from her that there is a pet care centre near our area. and yes. i could practically walk there with michael and owen. this is such good news for the west-side peeps.
the Club4Paws premises on Stagmont Ring Road has a pet groomer, cafe and playground.
but what gets most tails wagging is the 10m-long swimming pool that is up to 1m deep.
after a morning of long walks and ball games, the dogs get to cool down in the pool in the afternoon.
Club4Paws is the second pet care centre in singapore to have a swimming pool. the first was Mutts & Mittens in Pasir Ris. emphasis is placed on socialising. all dogs, big and small and regardless of age or breed, play together. 
those who want to watch their dogs having fun, or even have meals with them, can hang out at a cafe on the premises.My Dog Ate It, the dog-and-human-friendly cafe. treat your dog to meatballs or dory fish while you tuck into asian-western cuisine in an alfresco setting.
Club4Paws, which opened three months ago, has more than 165 members with access to its facilities. 8 to 10 dogs are sent for day care on busy days like fridays, saturdays and sundays. the daily fee is $28 for small dogs and up to $45 for bigger dogs.
met up with sam where we headed over to broadway to collect our regalia.
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
met up with gin and cheryl for dinner at teban. headed over to sunrise tavern to meet up with sam and klyse after that for the usuals. the couples couples. sigh.
the chats, the tauts, the booze, the ciggies, the racist jokes and the porn jokes.
lq bunked over cos he's simply too wasted. and he is damn bloody rowdy. damned.
who took this with my phone? i have no bloody idea. the gucci wallet, the booze and the chips. heavenly.
u jin lost weight. appetite's been horribly bad for quite some time. i do miss her soba, pasta and everything else. i wonder if i would ever get to see muff, snowii, longan and lychee again. sleeping at 9am and waking up at 3pm becomes a daily ritual. felt hungry but once i started eating, im full and sick of the food by the 3rd morsel. am i gonna die soon? haha.
im glad to have this bunch of buds whom i know would accompany me through my rough patch. i deeply appreciate everything they had done for me. big huggies. she wont be there to share my graduation with me. it hurts.
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Saturday, August 9, 2008
booze galore night at bali house again. so falling in love with this new found tavern. a great chill out place playing to mtv current hits. sam, 'forgot-her-name' girl, lq and me was fucking rowdy, smashed and high. hahaha. but it was hell lotsa fun.
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Thursday, August 7, 2008
hopefully my interview went through successfully. i would love to have that job. i just want to focus on work right now. parents are away overseas. its time to party and hovoc from dusk till dawn. smashed, banged and crashed'. when her msn pops up, i have so much to talk to her but i dun think she would want to. 22 more days to convocation. had mixed feelings bout' school. sem 1 was where bliss all begins and right now. ended. flips over another chapter of my life. but it'll be bookmarked forever.
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Tuesday, August 5, 2008
everything seems so rosy and perfect. too perfect to be true? the deep, strong foundations which i used to think it was could still crumple and fall by mere minutes and seconds over callous computer screens. cold hard facts.. do i still believe in promises?? i've learned to become so much more guarded now. distrust would probably linger throughout regardless of anything. probably a good way to not hurt myself ever again.
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Sunday, August 3, 2008
the memories for the past 32 months whizzed past and ended just like what it has happened to me before, thru the medium of an msn. simple, clean-cut, ruthless. it seems all so familiar again. the promise of eternity, the gothic weddings, the sleepovers, i had so much trust..so so much trust and belief in our future....facade of dillusions now. empty promises and sweet nothings hurts the heart. we have become just a standstop phase in each of our individual lives. im tired.. im sure i wont love another girl as much again.. im sure i wont have the same level of comfortablity with another girl again.. life's a bitch i supposed. here comes convocation next. doesnt matter anymore.the close ones has been accompanying me. thanks. angie's bday at boozer room, cindy's martell session at s club, sam, klyse, gin, cheryl and liquan's bar barrels at bali house. smashed. but it felt good.
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arrived at last....waited for a month.
